Independence...

Independence needs to be simple...being independent is not to be feared or dreaded...within this last year I have given way to moments/days/weeks where I felt that only someone else could fill me...could sustain me...could make me whole...but the moment has come to allow my independent shoot to grow (once again)...raw and green...to separate myself (while still staying on the vine of connection)... to be able to once again learn to be aware of how I can care for myself...keep myself safe...and sooth myself...with gratitude and joy and pleasure. I know I will feel the growing pains of this new shoot...this independence...but I wish to be rooted in my own growth...Not to wish that things could change to suit me..without drama...without loss....What I wish for with this independence is a love...unconditional...without demands of change...without expectations of someone else being responsible for my growth...without an urgency for connection to make me feel whole...without leaving the vine...A love that generates from the inside out for myself and for others...I wish for my own independent growth to be simple....
Artfully Yours,
Pattie

PS: Can you grow independently while still on the vine?

2 comments:

yertle said...

This is beautiful and really speaks to me right now. Thanks for sharing.

katie jane said...

I've been trying to answer this question for 33 years. I am a very independent person. I need my own space, like to make my own decisions, and keep my own schedule. But I am married, so I have to allow room for my other half. This has been a difficult thing for me to do and I am stil working on it.